donderdag, juli 31, 2008

I have moved. Permanently, i hope.

Same name, different host.

Goodbye!

i think its 8:37 p.m. now

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zaterdag, juli 26, 2008

Great Ocean Road trip today.

Nothing can possibly stop me from missing the Bee-eff and the Biffle.




:(

i think its 9:51 a.m. now

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dinsdag, juli 22, 2008

I am at the airport now.

The only reason why I am not flinging myself against the tarmac underneath the aircraft is that it I am probably never sitting Business Class again for a long, long time.

And furthermore, I am into my Week 2 and still I have not printed a single set of notes.

Haha, what a diligent student.


I am derailing from the way my heart feels right now.

Detached.

Fourth Semester of us being apart - it doesnt get any easier.

i think its 12:51 a.m. now

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woensdag, juli 16, 2008

Dec 23, 2007 entry from hippo:

to the zoo animals: i really love you a lot. you guys are the next best thing(s) in my life after the family. (and Mr Big)

i really cherish everything that we are together. : )))



Mirror that sentiment right now, with the addition of the above in bold.

i think its 1:57 a.m. now

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dinsdag, juli 15, 2008

The feeling is back.


For the past 3 weeks, i have taken him for granted.
Shouting debacles, hurling random heavy things at him,
treating him coldly, clubbing all i want without spending much time together.

I have placed my other non-scholarly pursuits well and above him,
meeting up with all my friends while oblivious to how he feels..
Worst of all, i sulked and showcased my infamous black face in front of his parents.

Him from work: (after spending the night at my place with only 3 hours of sleep without bathing) I'm hungry, i'm dirty, i'm tired, and most of all i'm hurt. What more could you want from me?"


And it was raining that day and i made him wake up at 545am to take the bus to work.
His socks were soaked through.

I know god sees all of this and thinks that i'm a bloody fucking bitch.

Of course, god don't mean that literally. Probably would say that i have sinned, need to repent, confess to a priest..




But right now, the feeling is back.


Feeling as in feeling i had back in February , just after spending all 3.5 months with him,
just before i left for melbourne..

That helpless, almost futile sense of watching the time pass us by..

I made a mental vow to myself to never feel that way again.

Now i have asked for it.

And i know the exact solution for it.

If only i were living alone.....

i think its 2:16 a.m. now

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vrijdag, juli 11, 2008

And the award for the best liar goes to you
For making me believe that you could be faithful to me,
Let's hear your speech out,
How about a round of applause,
A standin' ovation.

i think its 3:40 p.m. now

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I'm back from neverneverland! Right, plenty of stuff has happened since then.. And whoever said that place was boring? Living without an internet connection has been pretty liberating. It teaches you to improvise..

Well, to start things off, the love life is grrrreat. Beyond great, actually. I have so many tom dick and harrys. What's not to love? See, my portrayal as a high grade slut has achieved far and widespread effects. I love it when everyone who reads my blog thinks i'm a total whore and go around spreading that notion, especially if it's to be beloved boyfriend.

You suckers! My boyfriend knows better than that! Where else do you think he got me from? Moscow's red light district! Bunch of motherfuckers.

Ok, that wasn't very nice. I shall try to be nice to people from now on. Especially if such people love bitching about things that aren't true. You know, the truth is always boring. Why do you think celebrity magazines are so popular? They concoct alot of sordid stories and when the hoi polloi of us read them, we DIG IT. People love the warped version of any story. It makes more of an interesting read.

This rule of thumb applies to above mentioned mathafuckers.

Allright, enough. I'm at the airport now, waiting for The Queen to arrive. I have no internet at home, my laptop is totally cocked up, and my new phone that's supposed to carry out a million functions can only carry out one: fight its way to the floor.

I wanna credit my sanity to these few people: my boyfriend, my cousins, the rekindled BFF Vanessa Seow Yu Hui, and of course, my new tech gadget.

Goodbye.

i think its 1:33 p.m. now

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For something i want, don't try to resist me

i think its 1:02 p.m. now

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donderdag, juni 26, 2008

Me: "He looks like my janitor now lor!"

Pluto: "OH MY, then you really need to shave."

-silence ensues-

Me: "JANITOR! TER TER TER!! Not GENITAL!"



lol.

i think its 8:32 p.m. now

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Let us all rejoice that lonely planet decided to grace us with her presence: (goes without saying that she got lost in that process)





Headed down to Zouk, but phuture stopped letting GIRLS in at 9fuckingpm.

I was wearing a tie, so i was convincing the bouncers that i really am actually a guy.

Didn't exactly work,
BUT BUT BUT, thanks to my "hotness"
WE GOT IN!!! WOOHOO!

I bestow this honour upon my killer heels.



LIFE IS SPLENDIDDDD!

Why, why, why did i even leave this place.


Btw, i volunteered to tutor Ken for Social Studies this entire month.
Since i LOVE source-based questions.

GO FIGURE.

ENJOY LIFE WHILE YOU CAN FOLKS!

i think its 1:06 p.m. now

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maandag, juni 23, 2008

I realized that the only thing my goddaughter and i have in common is curly wurly hair.


Struck me yesterday whilst standing amongst the aisle of toys' r us.

What is she crazy about now?
Is it still Winx Club? Barbie? Play-doh? Bratz?

Did she ever like Bratz?


Anyway, I can barely b-r-e-a-t-h-e.
The excitement is coming in tsunamis.


I will kill myself if there is a question later that i am doubtful over.
Like, the knowledge is at my fingertips right now. Or should i say, distal phalanx.

Have a great winter break everyone!

Me's gonna go home to get laaaa-id!

i think its 11:54 a.m. now

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zondag, juni 22, 2008

Like before any Indian takes off for somewhere else, he/she has many things to do:


1. Transfer money
2. Pay allll my bills - i don't wanna come back to find out i got fined for a late notice
3. Wash my clothes
4. Tidy my room to some resemblance of how the mother left it before she left
5. Buy toys from chadstone for my goddaughter
6. VISIT TIE RACK!
7. Return DVDs
8. Buy Rach's present, if time permits
9. Throw away everything in the fridge/off fridge
10. One bottle of red wine left, one more night left. Hmmm.....
11. Book appointment for car smash repairs, cover car with car cover.
12. Book a cab

As you can see, OH! wait.

13. SIT FOR ANATOMY EXAM!

Almost forgot the last bit.


With regards to No. 4, my room IS A DUMP.

I shall first try to mentally pack my room.
This involves looking around and thinking where should i put this and that.
In the evening, i will execute the plan.
I think it will be more efficient that way.

i think its 10:34 a.m. now

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woensdag, juni 18, 2008

Murphy's Law says good things come in threes:

1. I FINALLY confirmed my flight home!! Emirates baby! Amen.

2. Cookies delivered to mah doorstep. Hot, piping, and still crispppy.
Definitely better than Mrs Fields, but still not as ooomph as Famous Amos.
But good effort, E! Keep up the baking work!

3. Our first trip together given the validation from the mother!

laters.

i think its 11:34 p.m. now

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I WANT THIS BOOK.




NO YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND

I WANT IT I WANT IT I WANT IT NOW!!!!!!!

i think its 12:57 p.m. now

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The Object of My Affections

I am slowly retreating back into that cement-and-concrete thingamajig that i so begrudgingly built around everyone else when hk left.

So i wonder, growing up, did i really shape myself against the grain of my parents' unhappiness?

I could never admit it.

I believed their lives and mine existed on two entirely separate entities.

That i could schlep myself away from the complexity of it all.



Now i've come to realize my life mirrors my mother's in more ways than one.

The nose, the boy drama, the compulsive shopping behavior, the saying-one-thing-but-meaning-another..thing.

It was all just an excuse.

-

We're going Bangkok. Steady ah!

-

But because today is a dreary day, with absolutely nothing to do in this cave of mine,


and because the BOYFRIEND is missin out on all this sexy permed hair action :

i think its 10:06 a.m. now

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dinsdag, juni 17, 2008

scream scream scream

i think its 9:34 a.m. now

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maandag, juni 16, 2008

BIG SIGH...........................................................................................................................................................

i think its 5:42 p.m. now

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zondag, juni 15, 2008

Hey Baby,

Sorry for neglecting you. I know that i've really put aside your feelings for the past 1 month and you're feeling really lonely and unwanted. See the thing is, i'm having my exams. You understand that don't you? I'm sorry that you think that i've only been using you, giving you fuel only when you're running low on it. I admit that sometimes i throw my tantrum at you when you can't get it up, especially in the cold winter mornings.

I also apologize that i totally disregarded your feelings when i spoke ill in front of you to my friends, saying that you're not worth it, and wishing i had made another choice.

However, after my dreadful paper tomorrow, i promise i will bring you to SupaWash and give you a good hosing down - soap and wax and all - until you are sparkling clean. Please don't die on me again okay?

Love,
Your Faithful Owner

i think its 8:20 p.m. now

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vrijdag, juni 13, 2008

AHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH

GROW UP LAH!

stop acting like your shoe size, rem how we used to say that audee??

-rolls eyes-

Btw, i found William Weekley the III on facebook!
OMG i was so crazy about him 3 years ago when we were in new york.
Haha, same old same old. Makes me wanna go Texas!!
And do some trout fishing!!!!
I still remember how i promised that i would go San Antonio to visit him
and he would bring me fishing and some offroading thing..
i didnt understand what it meant at that time,
but now i think it's just driving a 4 wheeler, and veer off the road (?!)

haha, the foolishness of yesteryears....

-

Mr Big's Brother - (let's just call him Big Brother from now on)
So Big Brother's Girlfriend permed her hair on the SAME day i did!

Ok, like those are the forces of nature people.

Great, it's a Friday night and i'm watching DVDs.
HOW PATHETIC!!!!

I'm going back to singapore to club and drink and make up for alll the friday nights i've been pathetic.

i think its 3:04 p.m. now

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15 Things We Love About Men :

1. Jar opening, spider catching and other minor acts of heroism

2. Kisses at traffic lights

3. Unsolicited spooning

4. Really, almost any kind of uniform

5. That any-sex-is-great-sex attitude

6. Their shoulders

7. Tuxedos

8. That they sometimes look like this :


9. Their unfailing desire for second servings, even if you cook something inedible

10. The way they will happily play cars with any child

11. How intimidated they are by your dad

12. The way they dollop ketchup on every meal

13. How sexy their arms look when they're driving (especially gear changes)

14. The way they look at us when they think we're not looking

15. The bit of hair that leads from their belly button to their you-know-where

i think its 9:24 a.m. now

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woensdag, juni 11, 2008

It's as if from 5000km away, Lynette knew Exactly how i was feeling, and gave me a call right out of the blue.

i think its 7:32 p.m. now

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dinsdag, juni 10, 2008

I have a new mode of transport!!

i think its 11:09 a.m. now

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其实心中没有退路可受

i think its 9:50 a.m. now

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maandag, juni 09, 2008

I listened to THAT song at the loudest my iPod would allow,


for one solid hour while the mother was on the phone to china.


And i think, i THINK i understand what he means.

Even if it's by a little bit.

I shall go listen to it more.

i think its 10:36 p.m. now

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This is the longest that i haven't spoken to Mr Big.

It's been a week and we haven't spoken more than 10 sentences.


I'm trying to take this as a good break,
and to focus on what's important right now.


But deep inside, it's killing me.

And i can only tell blogger. :(

i think its 11:08 a.m. now

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OMG

HOW CAN I BE SO FUCKING STUPID???????


FUCK!!!!

i think its 11:00 a.m. now

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zondag, juni 08, 2008

I am FINALLY on the permanent guest list at MOS!

Thanks mummy for hooking me up.


So friends! Let's go there before it closes down at the end of this month!


FOR FREE!!!!!!


Hippo, egyptian and black birdie take NOTE.
I'm coming back on the 23 June.
Stop climbing mountains and backpacking and whatnot.

Save some time for your dear rhino here!!

Also, I cant wait to meet my dearest pong ba pau.
Hope she hasn't put on any weight since Canada.

-

Btw, i permed my hair for the first time on Friday.
It's something i've been wanting to do for a long time now,

but NOW i see why i've been putting it off.

My straight hair was soo much nicer!
UGHHHHH!!!!!!!
Damn depressed. :(
Mother and daughter perms were never a good idea.

Now hippo's sure gonna make fun of me.
"RHINO HAS HAIR!?!? PERMED HAIR!?!?"

ok, whatever, i miss you ugly betty. hehe

I really have nothing intelligent to say.
Exams have been sucking the best juices outta me.
Besides, the mother is here.

I hardly get any work done until she sleeps at 11pm at night
then i study until 2am.
Going Chapel St for some shopping later.
Woohoo!




toodles!

i think its 10:01 a.m. now

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donderdag, juni 05, 2008

Driving down the extremely long M1 towards the airport yesterday,


with just the minimal lamps and misty air,


blasting Happy Ending in the car,


It just ain't the same without my absolutely tone-deaf, pitchless partner-in-crime.

Eunice, your voice is being sorely missed. (everyone go: HUH?!)



HEHEHEHE

i think its 11:18 p.m. now

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It's my first paper tomorrow but all i can think about is how exactly 16 months ago.......



I was making my way to East Coast Park,


Never knowing that i was about to establish the most important moment in my life.

i think its 11:17 p.m. now

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dinsdag, juni 03, 2008

Hey Mom
Why didn't you tell me
Why didn't you teach me a thing or two
You just let me go
Out into the World
You never thought to share what you knew

So I walked under a bus
I got hit by a train
Keep falling in love
Which is kinda the same
I've sunk out at sea
Crashed my car, gone insane
And it felt so good
I want to do it again

Hey Mom
Why didn't you warn me
Coz about boys is something i should have known
They`re like chocolate cake
Like cigarettes
I know they're bad for me
But I just can't leave 'em alone



I love this song. First heard it 5 years ago in Ruth's car.

Now i finally know!

i think its 1:35 p.m. now

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HAHAHA!

i think its 1:59 a.m. now

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