maandag, augustus 28, 2006
Do you understand what kind of never-ending battle it is?Go back in time.. i wanna go back in time.
Isn't life supposed to get simpler as you grow older? Why does it seem like more and more things are spiralling out of hand? Aren't we supposed to make more informed choices with careful meticulation now that we're already 20? Didn't those 20 years taught us anything? At the rate we're learning, what's gonna happen at 40? Will we still be trudging through life, moaning about everything and nothing in particular - not enough money, not enough time, not enough sleep, lost love, thunder thighs?
When the hell are we just gonna sit down, look around and appreciate all that we have? We're not stuck in Namibia with smallpox, no. We're not counting down the minutes and seconds when a neurodegenerative disorder would slice our life apart. Hell, we're not even poor and sick and have callouses all over our hands from ploughing through the Nebraskan fields. But still, we're discontented.
Still, we want more. How much can we eat and spend to fill that gaping void? What are we living for? Do we even lumber for a second when we throw away precious grains of rice (in my case, espresso biscuits), that some severely starved, enlarged-head Ethiopian kid might need that for his next breath? No, we don't. Because we're too bloated and full to ever be empathetic about anything else but ourselves.
The majority of us are fucked up individuals.
Individuals who, ironically, love someone else so much, yet can find the power and heart to hurt them beyond disbelief.
Are we really homo sapiens? Because i remember Ross saying that homo sapiens are friendly, peace-loving, non-condom-wearing living beings. Have we really evolved that much?
I don't know, sometimes i still feel like banging my fists on my chest and going.... "ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!" ala King Kong.
Dilute my pain tonight, would you?
i think its 10:34 p.m. now
Kim