maandag, oktober 02, 2006

Look at me.
Just look at me, okay?

I came back to singapore with so much strength and tenacity that could have only stemmed from even more hatred. I came back knowing i'm doing way much better than you, having the kind of life in melbourne that i've always dreamed about. I came back with open eyes and an open heart, ready to smile like i mean it again.

Then take a look at me now.

Where am i?

Controlling tears when i'm eating with the family.
Bouncing with energy with the kids when all i wanted was to go home, put on Poison, and loop it until daybreak.
watching you laugh and me crying inside.
blasting sometimes love just aint enough in the car.
fighting the urge EVERYNIGHT to drive to the same spot at the beach.

walking pass ritz carlton and thinking of that night - 1410.
that marina bay view, that sparkling lights, that red wine, that exotic dinner, that crazy giggling, that greenhouse breakfast, that beautiful midnight promise.

i think its 1:37 a.m. now

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