vrijdag, oktober 20, 2006

Sleep, like always, eluded me all night long.

Was one of the first to reach the library this morning, at a terribly early time of 830am.

The wind whip-sawed my hair and my determination.
The cold made my flat-feet throb with discontentment.

I have been too trusting, too easy,
too shui bian for far, far, far too long.

this goody-two-shoes thing clearly isn't working anymore.

I have tried all year, with all the courage my heart can muster, to give the benefit of the doubt. To take the high road. To be non-judgemental. To go out of my way to make people happy.

Not only did it turn its back on me, it left me unbelievably disappointed.

Maybe that's why i get disappointed so easily.
Because i expect too much from people.

I'm going to the city.
I'll feel better.
I always do.

i think its 9:10 a.m. now

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