woensdag, april 30, 2008
Well, where do i start?All right, i'll start from the fact that my heart wrenched in ways it never did wrench when i read my fellow zoomate's blog, and i miss her so, despite being called a "ruddy woman".
(I will not take to any offense.)
Thus, let us welcome the inaugural opening of rhino's blog again!!
Anyway, an estimated close-to-a-million things happened in the past 2 months;
Some changed my life for the better,
while others.... made my glass not only half empty, but cracked, leaky, and the contents inside even more polluted. (if you get my drift)
I must confess though, i've been keeping a treasure chest full of stuff to myself lately.
My faith was restored, but my trust has broken.
It is a sad fact, but it is still a fact of life.
My mother left Melbourne today, and i spent the best 7 days of our relationship just talking, shopping, eating and sightseeing with her.
I told her everything that i've been wanting to say for the longest time and it was a massive relief off my shoulders.
And she showed me the path, not prodding me in any direction, no jostling no coercing, just lighting up the dark, advising me the pros and cons of every divergent path, and asked me to choose myself.
I might not have the worldly experience or the maturity of a 50 year old, but i can see that things are finally falling into its place.
People usually do things for a reason, and i am mostly trusting of the people i first meet until they prove me otherwise.
That being said, i must tell you that i cried like my heart hasn't been broken before the day Mr big left for home.
Driving away from the airport was the Hardest Thing i had done for the longest time.
But i know now, i really do know now.
BTW, hippo, birdie, egyptian : I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY!!!
Your Rhino needs you now.
i think its 5:26 p.m. now
Kim