woensdag, mei 07, 2008

"You can't change what you haven't acknowledged."

-

I haven't had things put into perspective like that.
Until i was on the verge on losing someone who means alot to me.
I've had many turning points in my life, to tell you the truth.

But none like what i just had.

I was prideful in the past. Very prideful.
Only child, what do you expect?

But i know something snapped in me today.
Just snapped. And i succumbed to how i've been feeling for the most part of my life.


It doesn't have to be this way. It just doesn't.

I know that now. Slowly, i know. I must take things step by step.

But i'll start from where it matters the most.

I've screwed up HELL lots of things in the past.
Things that mattered the most, people that i cared about the most..

If i could, i would go knock on every one of my exes door, and said how truly, terribly sorry for what i've done.

But i know i can't, people will just think i'm weird.

So, i'm determined, very determined not to screw this up.

No, not anymore. I can't be that girl anymore.


And i won't.


I will be kept grounded. Because i know i have you to always remind me.
How simple it should be and how simple it can be.


Thank you, thank you.

i think its 7:43 p.m. now

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